forgotten song. Hush hush now.
Or today buying a wooden picture frame
& its refusal to hang flat against the wall.
This doesn’t change anything. The doorframe
solid there, just waiting for someone to pass.
On the other side of the wall: children laughing.
Add this to my list of failures: I have never seen
the tide rise or held a fragile life in my hand.
Never a gentle knife, a knock in the wind.
My magazine rack securing my place in the world.
The shelves of books a sign of the real.
The cup of tea I pour solves nothing.
I make a list of all the things I’d like to break.
All week I’ve been moving in & out of my body.
Mirror-window. Shadow-self. Trick-or-turn.
The light is gone from the window.
& the curtains, the curtains, unmentionable.
last night’s sidewalk inappropriate proposition today new
jeans & thunderstorms desire to be somewhere away
from rent demands & bills
the united states
postal service losing
the evening clear & windy no rain only children
running in the halls music
from a passing ice cream truck
my legs tired but I don’t know why slept late no coffee no afternoon
casual Saturday & Saturday night holding this place
together with scotch tape & stacks
of books mint
tea the weekend nearly over not wanting to face the
photocopier & fax machine
In an attempt to define freedom I can only say no
this isn’t it all circuits are currently busy
the night won’t have
my stupid questions won’t carry on this
stupid game the cat keeps
the cockroaches away
& the neighborhood sighs tenements
lean on my shoulder
carrying this alone dear walls please stop
a layer of paint won’t
ceiling falling in &
books out of order
I know the money in my pocket
bills & too
little sleep & so it’s hard here & everywhere
so much depends on the leak in the ceiling
my attention turned to leisure beer cans line the coffee table dirt
under my nails soon enough
the kids will be back in winter coats
the tired cast still trying to make this
home breaking the hinges finding a new route
missing every pothole
& bargain shopper
|past simple home|